Believing someone so easily, I was a fool. If only I didn't let my heart feel pity for such a guy, maybe I wasn't suffering right now.

There are a lot of things I shouldn't have done.

I regret the day I let him enter my peaceful life which is now completely a mess. When he asked for time, why didn't I just let him have it for the first place? Maybe if I did, I am living in a better phase now.

I regret the day I told my friends about him. For I know when time comes, I would always be a failure.

"Nobody can understand and know the real me."
It was all a DREAM, a dream I thought I would have forever.

Just when I thought he would know me, na-uh. It wasn't.

I should just forget it and let it go.
I know it is the easiest way to let my life be back to its normal circulation where I don't need to be sweet, I don't need to be understanding. Where I can be me.

The happiness I felt is nothing compare to the loneliness it cause.

The present I need to bury now,
and now it's just the PAST I should carry along.

I am completely tired of being someone that wasn't me.

I want to stop the pretension.

I want to be ME.


Do I need to change myself for that simple thing? I really don't open up my feelings that easily unless to someone I know I can trust.


I don't want to tell him how much I value him because I am afraid to get hurt.
I am afraid of the fact that he's not serious about it but nobody knows that. At a time like this, I can turn to no one but myself.


I know I am completely broken and yet nobody's here for me.


All I can do is to smile and help others out.

That's the way I used to live now.